Happy 2018 everyone. I hope this year is a good one.

Unfortunately, my first blog post for this year isn’t a very happy one. Yesterday night, my dear sweet betta, Eggplant, passed away.


We were going to have him for two years in March.

I’ve had a lot of great memories with him, mostly on my Snapchat memories. Anyone who follows me on Snapchat knows how much he meant to me.

For the past couple days, he’s been suffering from swim bladder disease. From what I understand, it means the betta’s stomach gets bloated from bacteria, air, or is constipated. When the betta is going through that, they will tend to swim on their side and lay down sideways to rest.

We noticed that he lost color from stress, but thinking maybe something was wrong with the bowl he was in, I went to Petco and got him a tank with a filter and a heater. This, unfortunately, resulted in Eggplant getting even paler. He just worse and worse. I treated him best as I could by consistently cleaning the water so he can stay in a clean and comfortable environment, but I knew I needed to do something else.


Yesterday, after work, I went back to Petco and got him some medicine. When I came home, he was still living, but on the brink of death. I put the medicine in, but soon after, he died. I guess I was waiting for some kind of miracle to happen when I put the medicine in.

My mom and my sister buried him out by our fountain. My poor baby baetta.

Eggplant lived a good life. Everyone in my family loved and cared for him. He is no longer suffering now. We love you Eggy.


One of the last and coolest pictures I took of him. We’re gonna miss you baetta.


Fictional Female Fighters

For Halloween 2017, I was my favorite fictional female fighters..

Sailor Mars & Kim Possible

I was honestly meant to be Sailor Mars in another life. Her name is Rei- my name is REYhan, we have the same hair style and I favor fire-type everything. We’re basically the same. I was so excited to be her.

I went out on Friday night and saw some pretty cool costumes. No one really knew who I was though, but a few people did. The few who knew were really excited when they saw me :p


And KIM POSSIBLE. My childhood fav. Kim Possible is and always will be my favorite Disney Channel show. I wanted to be just like Kim when I got older. I thought she was so cool how she saved the world and was always so confident when she said things like, “I can do anything.” She was so amazing to me. That was like a dream come true.

I dressed as Kim to my cousin’s Halloween-themed birthday party and my family dressed up too.

There’s my goofy family.


And this was last night- but with a twist! Dark Sailor Mars.

This past October, I didn’t really do anything too spooky. I went to Six Flags Fright Fest this year as usual, but nothing else. However, I did watch some spooky movies that I would like to share.


The Collector (2009)

I watched this movie by myself without knowing anything about it. I had no clue. So as I’m watching it, it was pretty interesting in the beginning, but then once the plot becomes clear and you realize the situation the protagonist is in, it takes a completely different turn of events. After I watched it, I spoke so highly of it that I made my entire family watch it the next day. My dad didn’t fall asleep so you know it was good when he doesn’t get sleepy haha 😀


Sadako vs. Kayako (2016)

This is a Japanese movie that I’ve heard about. I’ve been meaning to watch it for a while and I finally did. It was very spooky. I quite enjoy Japanese horror. It’s a cross-over of two different iconic franchises: Ju-on (The Grudge) and the Ring. The title speaks for itself. Sadako is the main villain in the Ring and Kayako is the villain in Ju-on. It’s a battle between two evil curses. I really like the Ju-on movies and of course, the Ring, with the cursed video tape is iconic. I actually just recently finished reading the first Ring book by Koji Suzuki. I highly recommend reading that too if anyone is interested.


Eyes Without a Face (1960)

This is a French horror film. This is an adaptation of a novel by Jean Redon. I never read it, but I think I will in the future some day because I thought this movie was subtle and a bit disturbing. It was just the right amount of creepy. The things that happened in this movie, I wouldn’t wish that upon anyone. It’s frightening and also kind of sad. I felt very sympathetic too when I watched this.


Need I say more?

Stranger Things (2016-present)

Last year, everyone (including myself) fell in love with this Netflix show. Last Friday, Season 2 finally came out (hooray!). I’m still not finished watching it, but hopefully tonight I’ll finish it. I kind of don’t want to finish it because then, I’ll have to wait a full year for the next season wahhh 😦

If you haven’t checked out Stranger Things yet, stop what you’re doing and watch it. Also, I love Eleven. That is all.

I hope everyone had a nice Halloween and has a nice November! xx

Washington D.C.

This past weekend, I was in Washington D.C. for the Game of Thrones pop up bar!

I don’t even drink lol iconic

I’m a huge fan of the series. I read the books and I love the show so much, so making the four hour drive to D.C. for this bar was worth it! Our plan was to get there on Saturday, spend one night, and leave Sunday night. We got there pretty late on Saturday due to some traffic and checking into the hotel, but we made it to the bar in the end.


Unfortunately, the line to get in was very long and we ended up waiting four hours in the rain. Downpour.


The line was actually not so bad since we had good company. My cousin lives in D.C. so he came with us and brought some friends with him. The people we were with made waiting fun and enjoyable. Everyone in D.C. is so nice and cool. I actually quite loved the buildings and the streets. Compared to New York, it’s very clean.


And the artwork was everything.

If you’re a big Game of Thrones fan, you would *love* this bar. There was different rooms and each room was based off of different places in GoT. The places were Winterfell, The Red Keep, and the House of Black and White. There was another room with dragons, but I’m not sure about the location. I guess I would just call it the dragon room.

These were the name of the drinks

From top left to right- The Lannisters Send Their Regards, I Drink and I Know Things, Dothraquiri, Shame, and The North Remembers. (When anyone got the drink called “Shame”, they would ring a bell and everyone would scream shame. It was pretty great. Cersei was triggered.)

And here is the best thing that happened that night (Thank you to Hakan for making it happen!) :


I sat on the Iron Throne.

Lady Reyhan of House Yasar, first of her name, Protector of the Realm, the true Queen of the Seven Kingdoms. Bend the knee.

I was a queen for 30 seconds. It felt powerful.

Since we got to our hotel late on Saturday, we explored our hotel a bit Sunday morning before we checked out. We stayed at the Omni Shoreham Hotel. It. Is. Gorgeous.


Before we left, we wanted to see some monuments so we explored for a bit!


The White House (Obama’s old house)!

The Washington Monument!


World War II Memorial!


The Lincoln Memorial!

(We saw the Capitol too from a distance)

Afterwards, we went out to eat then it was time to hit the road again. We got home last night at around midnight. We left Washington D.C. when there is still so much to explore. I want to go back soon for the museums of course and hopefully for the Cherry Blossom festival. D.C. was so much fun 😀


I’ll be back in D.C. again.. xx


Went went to Smorgasburg today

….and went into a food coma.

There was so many different food there, it was crazy! I was getting full just looking at everything. Everything there looked so delicious. It was very hot today, so it was convenient that they had free water for everyone.


I actually drank out of a pineapple today. It was pretty great.

They also had watermelons and grapefruit. The dragonfruit and oranges were sold out though.

Afterwards, we walked around Little Italy and Soho, looking at all of the amazing street art.


This one was still in the works and we watched a guy spraying the tiger for a bit. It is already so amazing

I had a fun weekend altogether. The other night I was hanging out with some of my friends and that was also a good time.

And now it’s back to Monday.


I hope everyone has a great Monday xx

Feeling Free!

Our pool is done and we have been swimming nonstop!

It is so refreshing to come home after a long day of nonsense and taking a dip in the pool. Night time swims are the best. The pink light is my favorite and is the most aesthetically pleasing.

Eid has passed and we took some awesome pictures outside by the pool.

We used to never go in our backyard but now, we’re there all the time. We never want to leave. We have such cute floats for the pool and amazing landscaping/plants that are being taken care of by my parents. I can’t believe it is our backyard, it’s still so unreal.

We’ve also had a few people over our house already to enjoy it with us. Yesterday was a lot of fun because it was actually mine and my sister’s first full day out by the pool when the sun was out. We’re always at work and come home right when the sun goes away, we really relaxed ourselves yesterday.

We had a couple people over yesterday and had a lot of fun playing volleyball. My sister and I were even sitting by our waterfall and pretending that we were mermaids haha 😀

After it got a little later out, a bunch of girls and I spontaneously decided to go to Hoboken for some dinner. We wanted to get a dinner crepe, walk around a little bit, and go back from some dessert crepes mmhmm :p

Since it was my first full day out in the sun by the pool, I am pretty dark right now. I’m lucky I tan nicely. I’m usually the tannest one in my family by the end of the summer.

I hear a bunch of fireworks right now! I’m sitting outside on the sun bed writing this right now with a beautiful view.


I hope I’ll get to swim as good as Haru-chan. (Free!)

The Last Grad

My little bro graduated from high school!


I’m so happy and proud of him. I can’t even believe that he graduated. He’s still just a little boy in my eyes ;( But alas, he is growing older and I have no choice but to accept this.


And since he’s the youngest in our family, that means my parents don’t have any kids in high school anymore which is weird and relieving at the same time.


So, Ahmedcan has a weird thing about Shrek (the entire internet does tbh) and even decorated his cap… with Shrek’s face on it. I gave him the suggestion for the “It’s All Ogre Now” and he loved it.


He really stuck out in the crowd because he’s so tall + it was hard to miss Shrek’s face.

Aaah high school, it really brought back memories… however, I don’t really miss it.


When any of our family members are graduating, we tend to stick out at every graduation since we always seem to have the largest group of people.

After the graduation ceremony, everyone went to our house to celebrate in the pool!

The pool is finally done and we’ve been going in it almost every day since it finished. It’s amazing and we literally cannot believe that this is our backyard now. It is unreal.


We’ll be swimming all summer!

Good night! xx

Sleep No More

For my 21st birthday, my mom surprised me with tickets to a show called Sleep No More in NYC!


This show is based off of William Shakespeare’s Macbeth. I’ve never heard about it before until my mom told me about it. My mom had heard about Sleep No More from a friend months ago and ever since she found out about it, she told me she had been thinking of bringing me here for my birthday. She knew it was going to be the type of place I was definitely going to enjoy from how scary and strange it sounded.

Going to this show was a very interesting experience, nothing I’ve ever experienced before. We had to wear the white masks in the picture above the whole time we were there and just follow the actors and actresses around. I highly recommend it to anyone who enjoys slightly creepy yet artistically beautiful things. All of the characters did a wonderful job and I appreciated the interior designs of every room and how much work they put into props and details.


Unfortunately on the day that we went, it was raining pretty hard in the city and it was a bit chilly, so we were all huddled up under our umbrellas.


After Sleep No More we went to Ellen’s Stardust Diner, a famous diner in Timesquare with live performances done by the waiters and waitresses. I’ve been there once before and just like the first time, I enjoyed it so much. It was fun singing along to all the songs especially since they sang very well known songs. In the last year, 26 people who have worked there left for Broadway which I think is incredible. They were all so extremely talented.


On my actual birthday, I didn’t really do much except be with my family since it was also Mother’s Day.


However, we did go to the park and reminisce all the times we used to play there. And then my parents played a bit themselves and had a competition on the spider web. It was fun just playing in the park together like we used to do back then. Just like old times.


I had a a very different birthday celebration this year! XX

Mother Knows Best

Hello, blogging world. Today is my 21st birthday. More importantly, it’s Mother’s Day.

My first birthday party

I’m lucky enough to have my birthday fall on Mother’s Day this year because literally without my mom, I wouldn’t be here.


My mom went through a very tough pregnancy with me. She had to go to the hospital within those long 9 months every other day for a checkup because of how risky it was for me and for her as well. There was always that possibility for everything to go wrong, but my mom did everything she could to keep me safe. It’s lucky that I’m even here. Seeing all the things she has done for her family just to make us happy makes me want to be a mother like her someday. I hope I get to be the woman that she is.

not to brag, but out of my three siblings, everyone says I was the cutest baby ay

Without mothers, none of us would be here. They take care of us from the moment they find out they’re pregnant. They’re the ones who carry us and who will always be there for us.

To have my birthday on Mother’s Day, especially this year, is an honor for me. On January 21, 2017, history was made. The 2017 Women’s March. A worldwide protest that women’s rights are human rights. A protest for racial equality, the LGBTQ community, freedom of religion, healthcare, and for our environment. This year was big for us women. And the strongest women I know are our mothers.

Babaanne & Anneanne

This post is for all mothers, grandmas, sisters, daughters, aunts, nieces, cousins, step-mothers, and for the fathers who are also mothers.

I love you Annem ❤

Happy Mother’s Day 🙂


❤ April 18 1992 ❤

Happy 25th Anniversary to my Anne & Baba! Size seviyorum!


Love. Aşk. Amore. Sevgi.

Bu aşktır – This is love

The loving relationship I see between my parents is everything. And still after 25 years,

they’re still goals.


I wrote down how my parents feel & what comes to mind when they think about each other or when they’re together. Here’s what they said about each other:

Anne to Baba

  • he’s always there for me
  • the right decision
  • Enjoyment
  • benim aşkim
  • ser serim
  • bebeğim
  • hayatim
  • kocacim
  • comfortable, safe, in love
  • nazlı
  • güvenilir
  • inatçi
  • mutlu
  • funny
  • workaholic, kebabçi
  • my other half

Baba to Anne

  • my life
  • huzurum
  • respect
  • canim
  • cenneteki arkadaşim
  • nazlı
  • şimarik
  • nazik, sarin, olgun
  • çok hisli
  • yufla, yufka, yürekli
  • very sensitive
  • one of a kind
  • sevecen
  • she never thinks badly of anyone
  • iyi bir eş, iyi bir Anne, iyi bir kardeş, iyi bir evlat
  • Yaradana çok yakin

Most of the words were said in Turkish, so I just wrote down whatever I heard, without any translations. Some words have much more meaning in one language & sounds totally different in another language.


“Ben Leylayı Mecnunu Ferhatı Aslıyı
Keremi Bilmem Ama
Bağdatı Iki Gözüm Kapalı Bulabilirim…”

– “Bağdat” by Ayla Çelik

I love you Annem & Baba! Happy anniversary ❤ 


Crystal Weekend

I went to some crystal shops over the weekend!


I went with my good friend, Laura. I didn’t have much crystals, but now my small collection has finally gotten bigger! We’ve been talking for a while now about going & it was so much fun. So peaceful, so chill. A great Saturday.


We were both mesmerized by this one Blue Goldstone which was breathtaking. A picture doesn’t even do it justice. It’s just so beautiful. It reminds me of the night sky. I love it so much. I ended up buying it & I’m so glad I did.

Starry night

I also saw some animals made of crystals which I thought was interesting. They each had their own meaning according to animal. I thought of my siblings when I saw them so I got each of us an animal.

My sister has the elephant, I have the owl, and my brother has the wolf.

My sister loves anything underwater related because she loves mermaids, so I thought of her when I saw this abalone shell. It looked like something she could use to put her jewelry in. Not pictured: I got my brother a shark tooth!


I love looking at my desk now and seeing my new purchases! It makes me so happy 😀

IMG_7433IMG_7434And finally, on Sunday, we had our family breakfast at our house this time!

The usual gang

I don’t have a picture of what the table looked like ( 😦 ) but i can tell you that everything tasted delicious. Of course, we went all out & we had so much food.


have a nice week! xx